The moment is here. The anticipated wait is over. Now the longest walk of conquering begins. With the climb of each step, fear begins to kick in and thoughts of running back begin to flash. Heart is racing, palms are sweating, and wrenching nausea begins to overtake. It’s too late now to turn back so there’s no other option but to keep going. There’s no way of anticipating the outcome so trust begins to kick in. A calmness overtakes and a small voice whispers “You Can Do it”. Strength begins to override nausea and faith begins to take over every ounce of fear. The time has come, and the countdown has begun. A loud voice over the speaker signals all the riders, Stand, Kneel, Lay Down, Goooo. 300 feet to the finish line is in view. Adrenaline is pumping as water splashes at high speed. This is exciting, this is unbelievable, and joy is kicking in as the finish line is in closer view. Who would have known that the ability to do this was within? The finish line is crossed and there’s no missing limbs, no broken parts. Breathing, Alive and I did not drown!
For so many years I’ve let fear overtake me. I refused to take certain risks out of fear of not knowing how to do certain things. How many times do we miss out on life and everything it has to offer out of fear of failing. Fear of not performing at what’s perceived as the best from others? One thing I’ve learned over the years is that you can’t go through life fearful. You must push past every obstacle and ungodly thought that would make you believe less of yourself. There’s so much unfulfilled potential in this world because of what people believe others will think of them. The thought of people whispering, she’s not good, he doesn’t have a degree, she grew up in the projects, he dropped out of school, etc. So what, let them talk. Let them whisper. When you have God on your side you don’t have to be an expert. You don’t have to have 5 degrees and a million dollars in your account. It’s your lack of qualifications that God uses to bring you into things that you could have never imagined yourself doing. See for many years I was afraid to go to a water park and go to pools out of fear of drowning. I don’t know how to swim. I was never taught and because of the neighborhood I grew up in my mom never let me go to the neighborhood pool. As I got older I never felt the need to try and learn. The scene I painted, in the beginning, was me conquering my fear. When I took that walk and decided I was going to live and not be held captive by thoughts of drowning because of my inability to swim was the best decision of my life. Coming down that 300-foot water slide not knowing what the result would be was Awesome. I never felt so free in my life. Not only did it set me free but when I looked to my left and to my right my babies were sliding down with me. They knew I didn’t know how to swim but my excitement and faith to conquer my fear planted a seed in them. When they saw that I was able to do it they felt encouraged to take the leap too. I want to encourage someone that’s reading this to not believe the lie that you’ve been told. You don’t have to be an expert to do it and survive. You will not drown because of other people’s opinions of you. Take that leap of faith and know that if you trust in God he will do the rest. You don’t have to know how to swim to survive in the ocean of your calling. All you must do is trust in him and he’ll teach you the art of floating, so you don’t drown.
Mrs. Cynthia Williams-Bey